Easier

I remember when I was younger and I hated school and it felt like everyone was out to get you with all of their rules and the babysitting. I remember hearing more than once from adults that life gets easier as you get older. HORSE PUCKY!! Life sucks when you get older! I want to go back to the days when all I had to worry about was passing school, hanging out with my friends, keeping my room clean and working a fun part time job. Now there are bills, full time jobs, managing a home and deadlines. Sure there are the occasional fun times, but it seems like when your younger everything is fun. Life is full of bad news lately and it seems like everyone I know is coping with a divorce, a death, a sick family member or friend, kids that wont mind, relationships that are rocky and they have lost their friends because that's what happens when you get older. So if you have kids please don't tell them it gets easier, it doesn't.

Parking

What the hell is up with people parking these days? It seems like everywhere I go there is some jack ass parking however they feel like parking and making it inconvenient for everyone. Last night I went to leave work and this huge Dodge truck was parked next to me. He was so close on the drivers side that I couldn't even walk between my car and his truck. I had to go in through the passenger side and climb over to the drivers seat. It was so annoying. If I didn't know how to control my anger, I would have squeezed in there and slammed my driver door into his nice new truck. What a jerk!!

Snow

I freakin hate snow! What happened to Fall, my favorite time of year? I woke up to snow today. Grrrr

Cancer

This is a subject that really gets to me lately. It seems like everyone I know has someone in their family who is battling cancer or has recently passed away from it. When I was little I used to get babysat by a couple that lived across the street from us. My dad worked two jobs most of the time so I spent most of my time with this family and my grandparents. Their daughter Jen, was my first friend and we remained great friends until she passed away in a car accident in 1993. I was very close to her family and they accepted me as their own. I learned the other day that her dad has stage 4 throat cancer. This was very upsetting to me, as I have drifted from the family over the years and have not made a visit to them in years. Still he is like a second dad to me and it is horrible. I spoke with his wife Noreen last week and learned all of the details. It seems that the cancer was caused by acid reflux. Acid reflux??? Half of America has this right?? Well it appears if you let the acid reflux go for a long period of time, it eats away at your esophogus and bacteria gets in there and causes cancer. The other upsetting thing is, he has not felt good for a few years and when he started feeling horrible he began to go to the ER. He went twice here in Salt Lake and they sent him home with the diagnoses of the flu or a sinus infection. The last time he went in August, Noreen rushed him to the Vernal Hospital. They were going to release him on a bogus just a cold disgnoses, but she refused to take him home until they found out what was wrong. They did a full body scan and found a mass on his esophogus. More tests were run and they found that it was indeed cancer and it had already spread to his lungs and liver. He is currently battling it and I hope he can beat it.

Two weeks ago I went to a funeral for my sister in laws mom. Her mom has been battling cancer for the past year or so. It was a sad time and I feel for her and her dad. The cause of her cancer, hormone pills that she was perscribed many years ago. Ladies are any of you taking these??

My first taste of cancer loss came in July-August, when I found that my good friend Juel was in the hospital battling breast cancer. Her cancer had spread to her spine and brain, by the time they knew that she was sick again. (she had beat the cancer 18 months before this) I dont know all of the specifics of what was going on with her, because I tried to keep the conversation positive while I was there. But apparently she had some strokes and it caused paralasis in her hands and legs, so she was confined to a bed. She would always talk about how we were going to have a big party when she got better and how she needed my help getting back to tip top shape so that she could go back to work. Her passion was cutting hair and she wanted to be able to that again within a year. She started doing better and her cancer count got lower and lower with each chemo treatment, but she still wasnt getting any movement back in her arms and legs, no matter how much physical therapy she did. I could see this wearing on her, but she did not give up. If it were me, I would have given up so she was alot stronger than I am. One Saturday in August I was getting ready to go see her and introduce her to Dan, when I got a call that she passed away. It was devastating. She had gotten sick 2 days prior and they rushed her to the hospital and began treating her for pneumonia. The autopsy confirmed that she passed away from a urinary tract infection that had spread to her vital organs. It wasnt even the cancer that killed her. I cant get that out of my mind.

Where is the cure fo cancer? I know its out there. So why dont they use it?

Hmmmm

Is it wrong that I want to do this everyday??

Frustration

Why are relationships so hard? Why can’t it get easier the longer your together? It seems like everyone I know is struggling with the same issue. They just cannot get along with the person that they are with. I am included in this. It seems like the older you get and the longer you have been together, the more things bug you about the other person. Why is that? You have a common bond of loving each other, so why can’t that be enough? Sometimes I wish the world would stop at the happiest moment in your relationship, and then everything from there on would be like that feeling. I am one of those people who cannot handle arguing or fighting and I try to avoid if at all possible. So why do relationships start to make you feel like this is all that it consists of- constant bickering, anger towards the other person, frustration, feeling like your all alone in the relationship. I want it to be easy. I want to feel like we are dating and feel like it is something new all of the time. Is there a way to get back to that?

Spoiled Rotten

So as many of you may know I have never wanted children and do not plan on having any. Well this is what I thought until I got a cat. God has blessed me with a cat that has a child living in its body. He was so good for the first few years that I had him, and now he is a terror. He has the personality of a toddler. He does things that he knows he is not supposed to do, just to get attention. He is constantly meowing wanting attention. He is jealous of time I spend with Dan and makes it known by how frequently he interrupts our conversations. He fights Dan for a spot next to me. He squeezes his way in between us when we are sleeping or laying on the couch. And he leaves his toys all over the house. So I have been blessed with a child that was just a little cheaper than raising a real child.
I always heard the phrase "your spoiled rotten" when I was little and never knew what it meant. Well now I do. I have spolied my cat rotten.